Currently

The weather... is hovering right at freezing with some light rain and snow due before morning. ☃

Reading... nothing. I just haven't had time.

Listening to... nothing but Christmas music. At work. In the car. At home. In a more general sense I'm currently listening to Tim snoring on the sofa.

Watching... The Great Christmas Light Fight.

Loving... that the Christmas party for the consumers where I work went off without a hitch and everyone had a wonderful time. Pictures aren't uploaded yet, but will be coming.

Thinking... about our daughter. It's hard not to. She has struggled with anxiety for several years now, but recently it been rising to increasingly higher levels. Last week she was able to drive herself to the ER when she felt a heaviness in her chest and pain in her arm. That proved to be nothing more than a panic attack (not that I'm trying to minimize it, but it's better than a heart attack).

Last evening she arrived at our house with the kids and for five minutes I watched her struggle to breathe and she complained her arms, legs, and face were numb, and her stomache and back were painful. She was clearly in distress and getting worse. I called 911. The EMT's found her heart rate and blood pressure were both sky high and they put her on oxygen. As they worked on her, she began to shake violently and said her limbs were getting stiff and she couldn't move.

The EMT's continued to talk to her and ask her questions about mundane things, distracting her, and coaching her to take deeper breaths. As she did that she began to calm a little and her blood pressure and heart rate began to come down. The longer she was on oxygen the more the numbness in her limbs receded. The EMT's said that was purely from a lack of oxygen.

Once they had calmed her quite a bit they did take her to the ER to be checked out. Again it was a panic attack. They suggested she get on her doctor to put her on something strictly for anxiety. She takes Cymbalta now. It's for depression, but is supposed to help with anxiety. Clearly it doesn't. She sees her doctor tomorrow.

Feeling... exhausted. Christmas, work, what's going on with our daughter... It's a lot. I've let a lot of things go this year. I ordered cookies rather than bake. I only put up the tree and a few other decorations.

The friend who was my maid of honor passed away this past Friday. They had to bring her home from Indiana so the viewing wasn't until today and I was unable to go due to work.

Oh, and I've been trying to deal with Oliver, my kitty. He's been peeing where he shouldn't and refusing to use his litter box. Our daughter took him to the vet for me yesterday to be checked out. It turned out he's terribly constipated and is so backed up it's putting pressure on everything inside him. To deal with this they gave him an enema...and sent him home.

Yeah, my life. You can't make this stuff up.

Celebrating... today was Tim's birthday. I gave him his gifts, but we didn't do much. We will go out to dinner this weekend. 

Grateful... always. Even though I feel like life has been hitting us a little on the hard side lately, I know that compared to so many in this world I am blessed and I am grateful to God for all of it!

Enjoying... the joy and wonder of my grandchildren and those I work with. It keeps my own Christmas joy alive.

Laughing at...

That's all for this week. I don't know if I'll be able to post any more before Christmas so I want to wish everyone a safe, happy, and blessed Christmas filled with family, friends, and love!!